The only thing you can do is let me soak up as much joy as I can to make the pain worth it if it one day comes. That’s where I’d gone wrong. I hadn’t given her the opportunity to make the pain worth it if it did come. I’d given up on the one person who might’ve loved me as much as I loved them and who wanted to be in my life, simply because I was scared that she’d someday get hurt because of me.
