I realized then that Matthias’ eyes were as watery as mine. In a second, his hand was in mine, and I squeezed it tightly in return. I knew I should pull away, but for an instant, I let myself bask in the feeling of truly sharing a moment, a feeling, with someone. It should have felt wrong, to hold my boss’ hand, but it couldn’t; not when we were sharing something only the two of us could understand.