Xenocide (Ender's Saga #3)

by Orson Scott Card

<We couldn’t find the pattern in you. We were trying to make a pattern between you and the other humans, only you kept shifting and changing, we couldn’t make sense of it. And you couldn’t make sense of us, either, so that reaching of yours couldn’t make a pattern, either. So we took the third pattern. You reaching into the machine. You yearning so much for it. Like the life-yearning of the new queen-body. You were binding yourself to the program in the computer. It showed you images. We could find the images in the computer and we could find them in your mind. We could match them while you watched. The computer was very complicated and you were even more complicated but it was a pattern that held still. You were moving together and while you were together you possessed each other, you had the same vision. And when you imagined something and did it, the computer made something out of your imagining and imagined something back. Very primitive imagining from the computer. It wasn’t a self. But you were making it a self by the life-yearning. The reaching-out you were doing.>