Part of Your World (Part of Your World, #1)

by Abby Jimenez

I’d get invited to holidays and celebrations with parents who wouldn’t have him, so he couldn’t come.

So youre saying you would go to a place your SO wasnt invited? Booooo, you whore

After all, those were the ones that healed fastest, right?

No. Not at all.

who my dad wouldn’t hate,

F your dad

What a great daddy he’d be. And a good husband. So good. And he was so gifted.

If youre gonna break his heart you are not allowed to talk about him like that.

But I wouldn’t get to.

I hope you dont get the position

I was in love with her.

Eye roll

I’d decided. I’d give up my life here to be where she was if she’d have me.

WHAT

She wouldn’t have to do anything, it could be all me this time—I’d go to her. It didn’t have to end.

Stop. The desperation in his voice is killing me

because there was nothing here for her to come back for.

you big dummy

because how could I and this place compete with whatever that was out there?

She doesnt even like whats out there

But I could love her better than anyone ever could for the rest of her life.

I couldn’t say I could really fault him for chasing down things that could hurt him. I couldn’t stop doing it either.

Stop

Nothing could convince me this woman wasn’t made for me to love.

There is a peace in knowing the one thing you can’t live without.

Then a crack of lightning came out of nowhere.

Violet is mad at you

An enormous branch broke off and fell across the driveway.

mmm the town wants you

His eyes were wide. “I’m not messing with that. That was God.”

I KNOW THATS RIGHT

Love follows you.

Even if what you want is to not be in love.

“Am I really that fucking embarrassing for you?”

Youre not embarrassing to me, Daniel

She looked at me like I confused her, like maybe I was a new employee or something.

I giggled

People don’t stay in Wakan. They come and they have a magical time, and then they go back to their real lives. I’d fallen in love with a tourist. Because that’s what she was. And the vacation was over.

Im crying.

I didn’t save myself.

I sat here and watched you do it

I didn’t just end this for me, I did it for Daniel.

Keep telling yourself that

I knew how lucky I was to even have had it once.

I really dont think you know how lucky you were. Cause where is he? Not here

And the legacy would die with me.

That's one good thing that came of this.

Losing Alexis would alter me forever. Like the rings in a tree, you could open me up fifty years from now and see when it happened, see the damage. I was ruined. I’d never be as good ever again.

Felt that.

I didn’t even care that I’d done it, because I didn’t want any of it without her.

I couldn’t look at the snow-covered landscape on the stained glass on the landing or the roses on the banister or the mosaic around the fireplace because it was where I’d fallen in love with her, and that was so painful for me now,

Thats the terrible thing about love. Their memories will be everywhere

“This hurts so much,” I said. “I can’t breathe without her. I just want it to stop.”

But what does love matter when it can’t outweigh the rest of it?

didn’t answer. Because the answer didn’t matter. Nothing did.

He is so depressed

You want to dream about them but then regret it when you do, because waking up hurts too much.

This is what made it easy. This is what made it hard.

I missed her so much it was physically painful.

“The world is ending, Alexis. That’s what this feels like. So come with me now.”

Because you carry love with you. And the realization that I couldn’t escape this was so devastating, so overwhelming, I couldn’t breathe.

I bawled into my pillow like a baby. And when I was done, I blocked her number so she could never do this to me again.

Good for you

She stuck a finger in her mouth like she was gagging.

Signature move

I couldn’t in my wildest dreams have imagined how utterly unlivable this life would be without him in it, until it actually happened.

😒 he tried to tell you.

And I hadn’t felt the same when it mattered.

Dang..

I’d just hurt him too much, too many times. And I couldn’t even blame him for being done.

“You wouldn’t mind being married to a carpenter in a tiny town in the middle of nowhere?”

Because sometimes family isn’t what you’re born into. Sometimes family is found.

I SAID THIS IN THE BEGINNING

“As. You. Wish.”

You owe your entire marriage to my expertise. You know what? Fuck you. And don’t ask me to watch your dumb dog again. I’m not doing it.”

Me

I’d made our wedding rings from the wood of the banister in the house.

That sounds uncomfortable

Alexis’s brother and his famous wife came, so we had to get three hundred and fifty NDAs signed.

Im weak

“Maybe she didn’t.

Did you just call God a she?