Stepbrothers' Darling

by K.A. Knight

“I take a deep breath and look at my life. I remind myself of everything I did to get here. I remind myself that I have people who love me, even if she never did. I remind myself this is my life now, and I can make it whatever I want. The future isn’t set in stone, it’s what I make it. If I’m not happy? I can change it, it’s that simple. And those who stay with you, they are the ones you need in your life. I’m not saying life is easy, Blair, and that we don’t make mistakes. I’m not saying living is easy, because it’s not. It’s fucking hard. “Sometimes just getting up in the morning and living is the hardest thing to do when it would be so easy to give in to the bad thoughts and numbness. But we can’t. We can’t let the days pass us consumed by doubts and what-ifs. That’s not living, that’s surviving. There is so much out there to experience, to love, to ask questions about. And ten years from now, I won’t regret the things I did. I’ll remember them, not the days I sat in my house being afraid. Your life led you here. You have a terrible fucking mother, you’ve lost and suffered, but you’re here now. You have us no matter what. We aren’t going anywhere, and no matter what you want to do, we will support you unconditionally. I’m not saying it won’t hurt, my love, because it will. We’ll argue, you’ll make mistakes, and so will we. You won’t just heal from this, but ten years from now, you’ll remember these days, remember your decisions and being surrounded by those who love you...