Looking back now, Jabari doesn’t play the victim. He says he had no one to blame but himself. “That was my punk-ass way of justifying all I did to everybody,” he said. “Because deep down inside I was a really selfish motherfucker, man. You know what I mean? I had no rhyme or reason or remorse for nobody. It was me, me, me, you know what I mean? And if I messed anything up, I can beg that, ‘Oh, I’m sorry. It’s going to be okay. I’ll never do it again.’ Just like a spoiled child.”45
