All I've Wanted All I've Needed

by A.E. Valdez

It would be easy to go back home, back to him… back to all you’ve ever known. Sometimes comfort is what kills us.

The problem with comfort is that it makes it easier to slip into routines. It makes it easier for us to become stagnant. I don’t want to be stagnant, and that’s what I felt like with him. That I wasn’t growing and exploring.

We were friends before we ever had a relationship, but I think we’ve reached the point of no return for that now. I don’t know why I can’t simply let him go. It isn’t as easy as people make it seem. Letting go takes a lot of time, indecisiveness, and fuck ups before you can officially walk away and feel done. I’m not there yet, and I guess that’s okay, even though I’m wishing that I were.

“You realize you’re human, right? We can’t just switch off emotions. You two were together for a long time. Over time you’ll care a little less, until you realize that you don’t care about him anymore at all. To get there… that’s going to take time.