All I've Wanted All I've Needed

by A.E. Valdez

It’s a quick decision but there isn’t anything to think about. Maybe this is how I find myself. I am so comfortable with familiarity that I’ve lost myself in it. A change of scenery would be nice.

I can relate. This is exactly how I felt about moving to Florida.

“I’ve thought of everything that could possibly go wrong.” “Now you’ve got to think of everything that could possibly go right,” she quips and winks at me.

The problem with comfort is that it makes it easier to slip into routines. It makes it easier for us to become stagnant. I don’t want to be stagnant and that’s what I felt like with him. That I wasn’t growing and exploring. I want to be able to know myself outside of being with someone. I want to fall in love with myself. No, I need to fall in love with myself.

Give thanks to yourself for being here today. Not only for making it to your mat but, more importantly, for showing up for yourself every single day. Starting each day anew even when you may not feel like it. The most important relationship we will ever cultivate is the one that we have with ourselves.”

People can tell you what you are all day, but you really have to believe it yourself for you to be able to embody it. I am getting there.

Letting go takes a lot of time, indecisiveness, and fuck ups before you can officially walk away and feel done. I am not there yet, and I guess that’s okay, even though I am wishing that I were.

“Stop acting like you owe everybody something. You don’t owe anyone anything. The only person you owe something to is yourself. It’s okay to walk away from something that isn’t working for you.”

We’re all deserving of happiness and of a love that’s so deep that you only discover the depths to which it goes with each passing day as your love grows.