I did not heal from my trauma by understanding what happened at a logical, conscious level. My trauma still shows up in my life. My healing means that I am aware of it. Making sense of trauma does not mean you won’t be triggered to go back to it. Trauma feels like an invisible organ inside of me separate from my heart that, in certain situations, and simultaneously with my heart, beats pain into my veins. Part of self-forgiveness and healing is accepting the pain when it comes and not judging myself.
