I just can’t pretend it’s not affecting me or that I can be strong. What’s being strong even like? Is it waking up in the morning and not looking at the sharp blade I stole from Mari’s kitchen? Is it smiling while FaceTiming Dad, even though I want to scream at him to return? Is it forcing myself to look in the mirror so I can have my makeup done? Or maybe it’s staring at my knight in the eyes and having a stranger staring back at me and not flipping there and then.
