Was I ever going to be done with Winter? Did I want any other woman? No. And what if I got her pregnant? Would my kids hate me for hurting her? Was it just some endless fucking cycle because I wouldn’t face that Rika was right and Michael and Kai knew what I refused to see? I wanted her. I broke last night because I didn’t want this. I just wanted that kid back who sat in my lap and drove my car. I made her happy. Me. And instead of sticking to the plan and making her hate that she wanted me, I hated that I still wanted her. None of it was a lie, except my name. It was real, and I wanted it
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