Kill Switch (Devil's Night, #3)

by Penelope Douglas

“Because pain in the body quiets the pain in the head. It feels good, like a kill switch for your brain.

And in your bed tonight, when it’s late and dark, and the rest of the house is quiet . . . you’re pissed and angry because you think you hate me, but you slip a hand under the covers anyway, because no one will be the wiser if you indulge yourself in the memory of me . . .

“You’re not making me dirty. There is no you. There’s no me. This is us. Just us.”

After being everything I craved and needed, he made me fall in love with him, but come to find out, I’d fallen for a lie. A boy who treated me badly and found out how easy it was to hide right under my nose and get me to fuck him. Did he laugh about it after with his friends? Did he have fun?

“Holy shit.” Will chuckled, not holding back as we all came out from behind the trees and watched him disappear. “He didn’t even try to take his murder weapon. What a pinhead.”

I knew what it was like to have horrible things being done to your body, and to watch it betray you and make you think you’re bad for liking it when you knew you didn’t.

“You’re mine,” I said, kissing her mouth once as I humped her. “Mine.” I kissed her again. “Mine in that fountain. Mine in the locker room and in the janitor’s closet. Mine in the dean’s office.” I took her jaw in my hand. “You’ll have my kids and be my woman and fuck me, because that’s what I want.”

“I told her the only way I could stay married to Ari for a year was if we were together as little as possible,” I said, both of us mouth to mouth and panting. “I told her that I wanted you,” I went on. “That you loved me, because there was no faking what happened in that fucking video, and I told her that I loved you, too, and I was sorry for stealing you the way I did, but it was the only way I could get close to you.”

“I love fucking you,” I told her. “There’s no struggle to connect in bed. No mystery with you.”

“Don’t let me go,” I told her, breathing hard. “No matter what you hear or what they say, don’t let me go.”

I’d changed her forever. I’d bent and twisted and broken everything that made her the most beautiful thing that ever happened to me.