Kill Switch (Devil's Night, #3)

by Penelope Douglas

Life felt like hell because we expected it to feel like heaven. The quote I read years ago went something like that, but I never understood it. When you’re in the thick all your life, living in ways you eventually figure out no one else is, you learn to sleep well in heat and eat fire. Until one day it’s all you need.

People assumed I behaved strictly on impulse, when actually, it required quite a bit of strategy to be this fucked up.

“Because pain in the body quiets the pain in the head. It feels good, like a kill switch for your brain.

you’d rip out your own hair because animals do insane things when they’re caged for too long.”

I looked at the pushpin. I could sleep tonight. If I really wanted to.

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I hated him, and I would never forgive him, but maybe we had that one thing in common. We had to change to survive.

“You teach your daughter to hide in everyone else’s world,” I shot back, “and I’ll teach mine everyone else exists in hers. Go fuck yourself, and leave the kid alone.”

and of any emotion that I avoided, I hated loss the most.

“My heart . . .” he said. “Shit.”

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