“Would you have asked him to marry you, if he didn’t do it first?” “I don’t know. Not because I don’t love him. I do. But…” He exhaled. “I don’t want to be as bad a husband to Cole as I was to Lilly. What if I’m just a shitty husband, no matter who I’m married to? What if I’m no good at being married?” “And what if you were miserable because you’re gay and you were trying not to be? I think that would have an impact on how good or bad of a husband you were.” “Well—” “You love him?” “I do. So much it scares me.” “Then you’re going to be fine.”
