Recognising this truth as the source of my anger took me months and it started all the way back at the beginning when I was sitting on the altar next to Damella and Varla. I didn’t see it sooner because it was too painful for me to confront. Too painful to consider. Like a coward I’d run from it, even though it bounced around in my subconscious constantly. It was why I had been so furious with Damella. It wasn’t that she killed me, like I thought at the time. That only made me angry. It was what she had done to my family. The pain she had caused. It turned simple anger into fury. Fury I’d let
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