I Need You To Hate Me

by Genicious

If you yearn for it and work for it, there’s no reason why you won’t fulfill every dream.

“That looks bad.” Ace looks at my hand.

He opens the freezer and rummages behind all the forgotten alcohol bottles that people placed here at the start of the night. He retrieves an ice pack and wraps a tea towel around it before taking a few strides toward me.

Ace maybe not being at asshole

“You asked for it. By the end of this assignment, I will learn everything there is to know about you. Your flaws, everything that makes you tick—all your

sensitive little buttons. How does that sound?”

“And sometimes the worst things that we do lead us to the best things that happen to us,”

“If you only read what everyone else does, you can only think what everyone else is thinking,”

“Don’t do that. No amount of guilt will change the past. Don’t blame yourself. It’s unfair, and it will destroy you.”

“How do you always say the right things?” I sigh, my own lips twisting up at the corners. Ace shrugs. “Maybe it’s because I’ve done all the wrong things.”

“Living in the past only fucks up the present,”

“The monsters that live in your mind really do exist. They just have the face of a human,”

“I beat the fuck out of him before he left. Luckily, Logan got there in time. We got drunk that night. And that was the last time I touched alcohol.”

Stay out of my way. Breathe in. I need you to hate me. Breathe out. I’m not good for you. The floor spins beneath me. I struggle to keep my balance. I don’t drink. I squat down and place my head in my hands. I close my eyes in hopes that I’ll wake up. But I don’t, because this isn’t a dream. It’s much worse. I’m a monster.

Ace is intentionally pushing Calla away but for what reason?

“And I don’t hate you…but I can’t be with you. I can’t see you. I can’t be your friend. Every time I’ll look at you, I’ll see the person who took away my mom. I don’t want to despise you, because what we had was good, even if it was all built on lies.”

“No. You can’t rely on him to heal you when he’s the one who broke you.”

Nothing can stay the same. We’re all part of a changing power that twists and turns us in unconceivable ways until we experience it for ourselves. There may be harsh and eccentric lessons to learn, but they are all a reminder that nothing stays the same—not even when you want it to. Every so often, that can be something to look forward to, and other times, it’s something we shy away from. Nevertheless, take everything as it comes, for it’s a gift to be able to move through time and experience what the universe offers you—no matter how forbidding it may seem.

Taking a deep, shaky breath, I open my eyes and let myself skim the words that will be entrenched in my mind for the rest of eternity. Maybe we’ll meet again in another life. When the stars align.