How do I explain how unsure I feel that romantic love like that is something within my grasp, when I feel like even with my family, that bridge to closeness is so difficult to cross? That all my life, people have been difficult to understand, to be intimate with, to be around for long before I need room to breathe and quiet to think and space to move so I can function? How do I explain that even with the people I do love, when my tongue gets tied and I don’t want the noise of a rowdy group or anyone’s body near mine, that it’s so damn complicated to find ways to show them I love them that
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