he raged at himself for being helpless and afraid. Not just in the past moments, or the past day, but instead at feeling just a bit afraid his entire life. Of not having any true control over his life’s direction and instead bowing time and again to the demands of society, the demands of his family, or the ridiculous demands he made of himself fueled by reality TV and pop culture. He felt the need to take control of his own life. To face any issue head on and no longer escape.
