There’s no start space. There’s no first page to this story. I don’t even know how to tell it. All I know is he’s gone. I deserve it. I’m relieved. And I miss him. And I want to tell Ben, so he can touch my face and kiss me and say he’s loved me all along. Except he won’t, because he hasn’t, and me breaking Mikey’s heart won’t change the fact that Ben’s breaking mine all over again.