I hope you understand that I don’t think he was a bad man. I just think he was very insecure and could convince himself of anything, the way insecure people can. Like my dad, for example, who can convince himself that his suicide will not harm me or my mom because actually we’ll be better off without him, and at some point in the not-so-distant future we’ll realize this and thank him for killing himself. Same with Ugawa Sensei , who probably figured that I, too, would be happier just not being there, and he was actually right about that. In a way, he was just helping me to achieve my goal, and
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