the moon will shine for us too

by Jennae Cecelia

How come I can start the day so motivated and then the empty shampoo bottle stares at me in the shower, but I do not throw it away? The dish with crusted sauce on it glares at me, but I do not wash it away. My email icon reads 112 new messages, but I say I will answer another day. And by 10 AM my procrastination settles in. And by 10 PM I regret all the things I never did. Tomorrow feels heavy because of the small tasks I put off. But I know it and I keep doing it. Why can’t I stop?

do not know why I make things so hard when I have come this far. Why can I not stick to the task? Why can I not leave things in the past? Why must my mind wander to all the places I no longer want to visit? I am tired of getting so far only for one thing to push me back in an instance.

When will people realize I have never been shy. I have so much to say. My mind is dancing with stories that want to come out and play. But how can I talk when you are much louder and want to be heard much more than I do. So, I sit in silence, listen, and silently roll my eyes when they say, “don’t be shy.”