because there’s a silence hidden in everything that is, and it’s this stillness that is the innermost part of everything real, I think, and it’s this stillness that is God’s creative silence, as Ales used to say, because God is an uncreated light, she said and I’ve experienced myself that the black darkness is God’s light, this darkness that can be both in me and around me, yes, this darkness I now feel that I am, because in the darkness is a stillness where God’s voice sounds in silence, I think and I see the chair where I always sit next to the round table
