Ace of Spades

by Faridah Àbíké-Íyímídé

Dreams are toxic.

It hurts to dream, but I dream regardless.

I learned when I was younger to keep how I really felt buried, deal with feelings later, on my own. I’m good at burying things in deep boxes in my mind. I’m good at being okay most of the time. Until I’m not, and the boxes burst open and I explode.