After We Collided (After, #2)

by Anna Todd

I knew it would upset her, though I have to admit that I was looking forward to her reaction. Not because I want her to be upset, but because I love

I just love how invested he is in her

how emotionally invested she becomes in things. She opens herself so fully to these fictional forces, whether in a movie or a novel, that she allows them to completely pull her in. It’s captivating to watch.

Stop staring. Slow, she wants to go slow. I can go slow… slowly… in and out of her.

“I’m just glad you’re still here, that’s all.” And I can’t stop thinking about making love to you,

She answers me by taking my hand and placing it in between her thighs.

What a woman

“You’re always so ready for me, baby,” I muse, collecting her moisture on my fingers before bringing them to her mouth to have her taste.

😳🫠

wraps her tongue around my finger.

😳

Fuck, I love to hear her beg.

Her moans become louder, and I bring my hand to her mouth so she can bite on it. “Shhh… let go, baby.”

Just as I’m about to tell him not to speak, he opens his mouth. “What’s wrong?” he says, and I hear my mother gasp.

Oh Hardin, Hardin Hardin Hardin

“Don’t you dare hang—”

But I do hang up. And then put my phone on silent.

Bitch power move. I love it.

“All right… all right… Christ.” He laughs. “A man makes one bad joke around here and he’s condemned.”

Yes

“I am… actually I am… I told—” “She’s going to Dad’s house tomorrow. She promised Landon that she would, and she’s really the only friend he’s got, so she can’t cancel,” Hardin interjects.

Ah what a good man

“Hey, she’s my ex-husband’s new wife, who I’m spending Christmas with. I can call her whatever I want.” She laughs and I join her.

Oh gosh

Whatever our souls are made of, his and mine are the same.

NOOOOO HE DID NOT DO THAT 😭😭😭 I WOULD LITERALLY TRUN INTO A PUDDLE OF TEARS

“Whatever our souls are made of, his and mine are the same”—it’s so perfect for the way I feel about him. We are so different, yet we’re exactly the same, just like Catherine and Heathcliff.

“She isn’t going anywhere with you. She’s staying here with me, where she belongs.”

You fucking tell her Hardin! 👊

“She has obviously chosen to forgive him. You need to accept that,”

She has a fucking point If tessa can forgive home and move past it she should be able to as well

Mouth agape, she looks at her son. “What…” “Oh, you didn’t know? You mean—surprise—the liar lied even to his own mother? Poor woman, no wonder you’re defending him,”

Oh dear god

“How could you, Hardin?” she cries. “I had hoped you were different now… I hoped you had stopped doing things like this to girls… women. Have you forgotten what happened last time?”

And I oop

Trish turns and stares at me, hard. “Tessa, you should go with your mother,” she says, and a lump rises in my throat.

What the fuck? But part of me agrees

“Yes. It is! See who she’s standing behind? She’s using me as a shield to block her from you.” Hardin points a thick finger at her.

Happy dance Ah sexy, sexy man

I nod my head several times quickly, then look at her flatly. “I’ll make sure to remember that when I’m burying myself into your daughter tonight.”

No fucking way he just said that to her fucking mom bro

“I love her more than I can even begin to tell you, because I don’t even understand it myself. I never thought I could or would feel this way. All I know is that she’s my only shot at happiness. If she leaves me, I’ll never recover. I won’t, Mum.

“She’s always there for me, Mum. She always forgives me, even when she shouldn’t. She always says the right thing. She calms me, but challenges me—she makes me want to be a better man.

I know I’m a shitty person, I know that. I have done so much shit, but Tessa can’t leave me. I don’t want to be alone anymore, and I’ll never love anyone again—she is it for me. I know it. She’s my ultimate sin, Mum, and I’ll gladly be damned for her.”

Ah, what a man

“Only five weeks went by before this girl—” “Natalie.” I say, connecting the dots.

ONLY five weeks geez

“You recorded sex with someone? Did she know?” I ask. But I know the answer even before he shakes his head.

What the fuck SHW DIDNT KNOW?!?

“When James saw the video of her… He wanted to fuck her himself. And when she turned him down, he showed everyone the video.”

What the actual fuck That is really fucked up This is way worse than the movie what the fuck

“The video spread so quickly that her parents found out before even a day had passed. Her family was really big in their church community… so the news didn’t go well. They kicked her out of their house, and when word got around, she lost

her scholarship to the private university she was going to that fall.” “You ruined her,” I say quietly.

Fuck No wonder he said he would ruin her What a fucked up man that doesn’t know how to deal with his trauma so he causes traumas on girls

“No, I didn’t show anyone. I deleted it after I sent Dan a screen grab… I don’t know why I did it, really. He was such a dick about telling me to stay away from her when he brought her around the first time that it made me want to fuck her just to piss him off. He’s a true asshole anyway, Tessa.”

This is making me kinda nauseous honestly

“Yes, you do, Tessa! You do know me. That wasn’t me—this is me. This is me now. I love you! I will do anything for you, for you to see that

this is me, the man who loves you more than breathing, the man who dances at weddings and watches you sleep, the man whose day can’t start until you kiss me, the man who would rather die than be without you. That’s me, that’s who I am. Please don’t let this ruin us. Please, baby.”

Why do I feel jealous of Natalie? I should feel sorry for her, not envy her for touching Hardin.

Yikes

The problem is

that his presence washes away every ounce of restraint I should have.

It’s because love makes you loose every sense of common sense that you have

“I’m the one in charge—the one with the control. Don’t forget that, baby,”

“When… we get home… I’ll fuck you again, and you won’t be covering your mouth…”

“Everyone will be able to hear you. Hear what I’m doing to you, what only I can do to you.”

“You know what… it’s fine. You can go back in there and ask your new boyfriend to give you a ride home.” I turn and unlock the car door. “He looks a lot like Noah, and you probably miss him.”

Oh fuck

“However, I have done a list of shit… an entire book of shit to you, and you always forgive me. I’ve done far worse than you, so I owe it to you to do my best to let it go and forgive you. It isn’t fair to you for me to expect things from you that I can’t return. I really am sorry, Tess, for everything last night. I was a fucking idiot.”

👏👏👏