More on this book
Community
Kindle Notes & Highlights
“I think I’m going to take a man-sabbatical,”
real
a man who told him from the beginning exactly how their love story would end.
Charlie’s kind of funny when you can get him to speak without stammering.
“I know I can make you fall in love.”
with me...;')
“You are so lovable and so deserving of love,” she insists.
“I am, well, I’m into puzzing,” he finally says.
real char reeeeeeeaaaaal
It’s easier with you.”
*cues So This Is Love*
six years
“I already freak out when you touch me.”
I wanted marriage and babies, and he didn’t even care about me enough to know my shirt size.
“The worst part is, I knew going into the relationship that Ryan didn’t want any of those things, but I thought I could change his mind. I thought that if I were good enough and fun enough, Ryan would want to be with me forever.”
I threw away six years on someone who only loved me when I was Fun Dev.”
Dev is nervous. Dev, who is always so confident, so charming, so extroverted, is nervous at the thought of letting Charlie read his work.
“I’ve seen you do this on set when you’re anxious. When it gets like this, how can I help?”
greenest of flags
“No one has ever asked me that before.”
Dev tried to understand, which people almost never do.
Jules reaches over and gives Dev’s arm puppy scratches.
SHE KNOWS
“I’m worried you don’t know what you deserve.” He grabs Dev’s shoulders. “Six years is a long time to stay.”
“My crush?”
“Did you just thank me for kissing you?”
me bro
“I think you like that I’m a little weird,”
his beautiful brain works a little differently sometimes.”
It is maybe Dev’s favorite face.
“I think I really like you,”
“You talk about him a lot, and when you look at him, your whole face relaxes,”
Most of the time, Dev is like a human bonfire walking around generously warming everyone with his presence. But burning that bright and that fiercely must be exhausting; no one can sustain it forever.
Charlie really wants to kiss Dev right now.
“I’m not afraid of anything. Except emotional intimacy and abandonment.”
Dev intertwines their fingers, and Charlie had no idea such a simple gesture could feel so huge inside his chest.
sweetheart.
Dev knows him and understands him and wants him anyway, and Charlie has never been this attracted to anyone else.
sitting alone at lunch every day in elementary school because the other kids were afraid of his intensity and his differences,
:(
about the bullies at recess. About the high school therapist who told him exercise might help reduce his anxiety, about consequently becoming obsessed with exercise.
:(((
“You make me so fucking happy.”
Charlie flinches at the use of the c-word.
For someone who claims to love love, you’re really good at pushing it away.
Better to end things now than delay the inevitable.”
“Have you thought about, I don’t know, apologizing to him?”
And I… I, like, love you or whatever.”
why it took you six years to break up with someone who didn’t make you happy.
absolutely not
“You’re one of the funniest, smartest, kindest, most passionate motherfuckers I’ve ever met, Dev. And you deserve a happily ever after, too.”
I think you’re perfect just the way God made you.”
Amen
She’s crying now, too. They make quite the sexy pair.
When things got bad, you would shut me out entirely.”
“You love orchestrating big romantic gestures, Dev, but you’re scared shitless of anything that’s real.
“I’m in love with him.” Jules snorts. “No shit, dumbass.”
“Have you considered just letting yourself love him?”
He tries talking, tries opening up for Charlie the way Charlie opened up for him.
So it just became easier to pretend to be Fun Dev all the time, to put on a smile so he wasn’t such a burden. After all, he had no reason to be sad. Everything was always fine.
the boyfriends who never bothered to find out what exists on the other side of Fun Dev, and the boyfriends who never called him beautiful,
