Finding Ian

by Riley Hart

“I have another leg if you want it.”

“It’ll never be anyone’s place to punish me for anything.”

“It’s okay to let go, ya know? Of all that stuff in your head—your work and responsibilities, and how you always worry about Finley even though you know Aidan will take care of him. You need to let go once in a while.”

You’ll be even more beautiful than you already are when you’re writhing beneath me.”

“It’s okay to let someone other than Finley in. It’s okay to let someone take care of you, or hell, even just be there for you. Finley never left you. Jordan won’t leave you. I won’t either.”

“Only I’m not paying you to have sex with me—not that I have a problem with

that—but if we ever fuck, it’ll be because you want to from the start.” His voice was deep and dark, like some kind of whiskey or something.

“He’s a cuddly little thing, isn’t he, pup?” David said from the doorway. “He’s going to require lots of love and praise, I think.” I nodded. “You think correctly.” Ian dropped his hand away. “What about Ian? What does he require?” I asked. I was fascinated by David’s mind, the way he could read people.

You’re a naughty little kitten, Jordan, like I told you. Ian is a stubborn pup. But if he let himself go, if he gave himself to someone, let them break him down and help build him up, he would soar in a way he’s never let himself. But I also think he’d need to handle the reins from time to time, unlike you.” He winked at me. “Why don’t you come here and kiss me?”

I was angry and didn’t know why, other than the fact that I was so tired of everything being so hard. So tired of being alone but afraid to be any other way.

Are we not jogging today? I didn’t want to interrupt.

I thought maybe you needed sleep after last night. I’ll be right there. Also, you’re not interrupting, pup. We want you.

While Jordan and I had our fun on our own, and Ian and Jordan had gotten to taste and touch each other, I hadn’t been granted the same privilege with Ian. “Do you remember the colors?”

“How come I’m the only one who hasn’t gotten to suck a dick or have my dick sucked today?” Jordan sat cross-legged beside me, pretending to pout.