Acts of Desperation

by Megan Nolan

think that I wanted more than anything to be real like those girls, but I didn’t know how to be, didn’t know any other way to be close to these boys except for partying with them.

Immediately the shutter had gone down and his face closed up and he replied that my insecurities were my own problem and he couldn’t be expected to rearrange everything for them. He couldn’t watch what he said all the time just because I felt a certain way. I cried when his face did that and said sorry and sorry and sorry but he was gone and moved away from me and sat by the window looking out and ignoring me.