If you feel guilty about leaving your abuser, indebted to him or her, or just depressed about losing what feels as if it has so much promise, understand that these are not logical, and they're NOT true feelings of love: they are horrible side-effects of the chemical warfare that's been going on in your brain, to put it that way. It sounds shocking, but take it kindly: it means, don't feel guilty; you're not indebted; and you won't have to feel depressed!