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My mother was to be buried in the same plot as my dad, a kindness I hadn’t expected from James, and I was grateful to him for it.
Her death had been so violent, tragic, and pointless. Why? Why had they done that to her? Why disfigure her? Why put her through that torment and horror? If the plan was to grab me and take me somewhere, which I gathered from what I heard that night, why did they need to hurt her the way they did? Who was it that sent those men to grab me and hurt her? Kill her? The answer was right in front of me.
Like I said in the last book it has to be Shay's doing
She was gone. With the damage she’d sustained from the stab wounds in her chest, there was no way she could have been saved. Her eyes and nose were gone. The corners of her mouth were cut so that when she had screamed, the skin would have ripped open.
I am, staring numbly as she was slowly lowered into the earth beside my father. Dad… Mum… I was all that was left of my family.
I was still good at school, and I had been a great dancer, with a promising future… until now.
“I’m here, Sweetness,” he whispers into my ear, “I’ll always be here. You’re not alone. I’ll never let you be alone again.”
Bruh here he go
I just don’t see you like I see… Those words had set him off, his mind officially snapped. There I was, lying with him after he’d given me yet another orgasm from eating me out, which is something he insisted on doing almost every night if he wasn’t finger-fucking me.
Oh heck no
Though my mind is constantly at war screaming through it because all I can think of is him. The person who I wish I were lying with instead.
It was nearly one in the morning, and we were both in the process of dozing off when a loud beeping broke the silence in the room.
Oh my gosh bro
I have been texting back and forth with Keenan for ages now, but it wasn’t until today that I finally told him about Shay’s ultimatum.
BRuh
I usually kept it on mute, so this very situation wouldn’t ever occur. But when James and Shay came home for dinner, I had slipped the phone back in the box beneath the floorboards, forgetting to silence it again.
Omgggg
I turn to the side, finding a soft patch of earth deep beneath a dense bush close to the maple tree, and start to dig in the muck with my hands.
Omg I'm so happy. Iwas lit hoping she would bury it.
I bury the box, making sure it’s covered by the bushes and the maples, placing several stones to lay on top of the earth.
Good
Holy. Shit. James kicked the crap out of him!
I feel like the man, who was once my faithful guardian and protector, is now transforming into my dark demon.
Where was James? What happened?
My thoughts
“You’re my girl, Mina,” he murmurs, at last while reaching out with his free hand to cup my face, “it’s time you fully embrace that.” He takes a step closer, forcing me to spread my legs so he can stand between them. “Now open your mouth and take me in.”
What the hell
“Don’t be nervous, Sweetness,” he says in a rough whisper as he gazes down at me, “This is how it’s supposed to be between us.” He reaches up, pressing two fingers to my racing pulse on my neck, the corners of his mouth rising ever so slightly. “I just want you to be with me, Mina. Stop fighting it. Just be good and do as I say, and I’ll fucking love you with all that I have. I’ll make you feel good.”
Bro what the fuckkkkkkkkkkk
“I want you to crave me like a drug. I want you to beg me to fuck you. And I will. Because it is the most right and the most honest thing that I can do, to show you how I feel about you. That I love you. I always have, and I always will.”
Bro huh
“You’re a good girl, you know that?” He breathes against my skin, his movements picking up the pace a bit more now. “That’s all you have to do, Mina. Be good. Do as I say, and everything will be perfect. Okay? No more bullshit. No more fighting us. You do as I say, and we’ll all be happy. I know it. I know it…”
Fuckkkkk no
I can feel him swell before a warm heat spreads inside me, and I realize he didn’t use a condom.
I catch a quick glimpse of a small stain of red on it before he quickly tosses it into the hamper that sits in his closet. My blood.
This is lit so sad
“That was a Depo-Provera shot. Birth control. You’re good until October.” Fucking son of a… I quash down my anger.
Bro what the hell
My leg was killing me, my privates were sore, but Shay didn’t give me a moment to recover. The moment I woke up in the morning after the disaster of a night, Shay rolled me over and had his head between my legs before he was driving into me like a man possessed.
Wtfff
I flush as he hands me a twenty, feeling like a little kid again, then I start to feel sick. Real guardians would not do what he did to me all weekend.
“Good girl.” He kisses my forehead, my cheeks, and then my lips, lingering for a moment before pulling back to squeeze my chin.
Bruh what I'm so disgusted
When I glance up, several of them look quickly away, and I notice how Becca and Ashley whisper to each other, their eyes on me.
When I ended up passing Becca and Ashley in the hall, I was hailed with a series of “Slut,” “Whore,” “Brother-fucker,” and “Trash”.
Smhhhh
My situation was not my choice… not really.
Exactly
No… what Shay did to Eli was more than fucked up. I have no idea what happened to him after his multiple facial reconstruction surgeries. He disappeared from our town and moved to Ashland. But no one from our school has heard from him, even his closest friends.
Omgggg
And James… Not only is James hardly around anymore, but when he is, he barely speaks to me, let alone looks at me.
I have no idea what the hell happened between them. Neither would tell me anything.
“Mina!” Aron’s voice shouts as the second shadowy figure spotted me trying to hide deeper in the alley. “Manic! She’s here! Here!”
Oh my gosh. This is scary.
He mutters under his breath the entire time, but he speaks so low I can only catch snippets like, “Stupid,” and, “hope he punishes you.”
Bruh huh
“I’m done giving you time,” he murmurs, his cool reserve now shifting to something else, something menacing and unstable. “I am done waiting. You brought this on yourself, do you understand me? Say you understand.” When I remain silent, his hand painfully grips a fistful of my hair and he gives me a shake. “Say, ‘I understand, Shay.’” “I-I understand, Shay,” I hiccup through my tears. “Say, ‘I will do what you tell me, Shay.’” “I will do what you tell me, Shay,” “Say that you are mine!” I swallow back the lump in my throat and whisper, “I’m yours.”
This is too much bro
To protect him… you must surrender. To protect him… you must surrender. To save Key, I need to completely submit to Shay.
Shay just needs to die
For years I’d been trying to help him fight his demons, but now? He’s forcing me to dance with them instead.
Smhhh
“You’ve never been a fucking toy, Mina…” he practically growls at me, “You’ve just been mine. You always have been, from the very first time that I held you in my arms and looked at you. I felt it then, even if I didn’t understand it. You were always meant to be mine.”
Disgusting
His eyes are shining, his mouth slightly open, and he’s looking up at me with a sort of euphoric expression. I’m his world.
Bastard
What the fuck was wrong with me? Who the hell enjoys sex with the very person holding control over every facet of their life in their greedy hands?
Shay bought me new clothes to wear when I wasn’t around him, and I limped down the halls in baggy hoodies and jeans, or cargo pants, with my hair hanging down to further hide my face from my peers.
What the hell fr
Each flash of discomfort was just a reminder that I would never dance again.
All I was informed about the “interrogation” was that Shay was ruthless in torturing the guys for information.
Bruh it was prob fuckin him
My dream was gone and buried. Just like my father… like my mother…
“What has you so freaked out? Did I do something?” What really kills me is how genuinely concerned he sounds. Another nice guy… Like Eli… like that poor man in the alley, I think, guilt boiling as it churns in my stomach.
“He’s not worth it. Do you really think I give a shit about some high school boy when I have you?”
I just got the ick so bad
“That piece of shit who hired those guys to grab you hasn’t been caught, Mina.”
Bruh it was prob him the whole time
Sure enough, it is a woman’s jacket, but sewn onto the back is a small Celtic Beasts patch with a smaller emblem spanning the top, with the words ‘Property of Manic’ written inside. “I. Am. Not. Wearing. This!” I vehemently spit out each word, my lip curling as I throw it back at him.
Oh my actual goodness
“Do you not fucking get it?” He shouts right in my face, “You are my fucking property, Mina! You are my fucking old lady, whether you like it or not! You think I’m gonna go fuck some other bitch now that I finally have you? Are you fucking stupid? Are you crazy?”
bro what
“Uh, Shay? Where are we?” My eyes widen in alarm when his bike pulls up outside a small, brick building. I stare up at the sign, “BB’s Tattoo Parlour,” and immediately, all the hairs on my arms stand up on end.
Oh my gosh pls don't make her get a tattoo for him
