All this time I’d felt there was something so helplessly wrong with me. But all along, that was the answer. I can’t. And the program is based around the admission of that fact, acknowledging that I am powerless over it, and turning it over to a power greater than me. IT’S GOD’S PROBLEM NOW, MOTHERFUCKERS! And something in the surrendering, as anyone who has worked a 12-step program knows, is so freeing—it’s like a weight comes off of you (pun intended). There is peace in knowing you can’t do anything. For an ambitious perfectionist, this is both revolutionary and excruciating. But what a
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