The primary effect was that I lost the ability to tell when I was hungry. Having yoked the act of eating—or not eating—to things like social standing and personal worth, I had unlinked it from the needs of my actual body. I didn’t know how to recognize that I needed to eat, or make the necessary provisions. Sometimes I wouldn’t realize it until the point of meltdown. More than once, I spent months plagued by mysterious
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