“Well, the past few months, while things became…strained between us, my anxiety’s often been high.” I thought I could fix it before she noticed, before she started asking questions and pushing me for answers. I’d managed my anxiety and accompanying symptoms better in the past. I could do it again. I just had to try harder. Fight it harder. Work out. Eat well. Exercise. Keep my sleep schedule. Breathe deep. Meditate on the drive in to work— Yeah, which went so well when you had that panic attack and had to pull over.

