When the Stars Fall (Lost Stars, #1)

by Emery Rose

But I knew that he was already gone. I’d lost him somewhere on the other side of the world.

Love shouldn’t have to hurt this much.

Lila was tough and she was strong, but her love for me made her weak.

I’d decided from the day I met her, scared to death that she was going to drown in that creek, that I’d always be there to rescue her and keep her safe. So I didn’t want to think about if she was pretty or not.

I thought about a sky with no stars and couldn’t imagine anything sadder.

She was ours to protect.

She was my favorite person.

I wanted to be her two in the morning person. The one who was there for her no matter what. Lila was mine. End of story.

“I’ll um... wash the hoodie and get it back to you tomorrow.” “Keep it,” he said, holding the front door open for me. I stepped outside and took a deep breath of hot, muggy air. “But it’s your favorite.” “That’s why I want you to keep it.”

“Because, Lila... if a guy won’t give you his favorite hoodie, he’s not worth your time.”

I wanted to take back all the stupid things I’d said to Ashleigh. Because Jude was mine and I didn’t want anyone else to have him. Because that was the day I fell in love with Jude McCallister.

“I’d never let anything happen to you,”

“What happens when the stars fall, Jude?” “I’ll put them back in the sky for you,”

Hands down best kiss I’d ever had. Because it was Lila.

But you make me feel weak and you make me feel strong all at the same time.

And I don’t know, I guess what I’m trying to say is that you were my two in the morning person.

I loved that boy so much that sometimes it hurt.

It felt dangerous, loving someone the way I loved him. I knew how cruel life could be. The person you loved could be ripped away from you in the blink of an eye. But I did it anyway.

“Forever is a long time. How do you know I’m the one you want to spend it with?” “I’ve always known. You’re it for me.”

I’ve always loved Lila, and I always would. But sometimes love just isn’t enough.

It was an odd sensation to look at the man you loved but not recognize him.

Save me, Lila. I’m drowning.

“Next time you decide to fuck me, don’t forget to bring me along for the ride.”

“Baby. I love you. Tell me what I can do to make this better. I’ll do anything.” “Put the stars back in the sky, Jude. It’s so dark and lonely without them.”

My eyes drifted shut. Lila. Lila. Lila. Sorry, baby, I’m just so fucking tired. So fucking weary of this battle. Forgive me.

Every day I’ve watched you fade until all the light in your eyes was gone, and I knew it was because of me.

I did that to you. I took the light out of your eyes when all I ever wanted to do was make you shine brighter.

The stars are still in the sky, baby. Just open your eyes and look up. On the darkest nights, they shine the brightest. And one day soon you’ll see that you never really needed me to put them back in the sky for you. You’re strong and brave and fierce. You’re a goddamn warrior, Rebel. The real hero in our story.

My god:(

I don’t believe in much of anything anymore, but I still believe in you. I will always believe in you.

I was always looking for Lila. In every bar. On every street corner.

today all I saw was the Lila who still believed that Jude hung the stars and the moon.”

“You can’t lose me. I’m your Noah.”

I had to find a way to put the stars back in the sky.

He was looking at her like she’d put the stars in the sky. And she had. She’d given him a son. And I fucking hated him for it.

“You owe me an entire galaxy. I’m still waiting for you to put the stars back in the sky.”

Was there a chance she could still love my broken, fucked-up self? The man who had lost part of his soul to a war and his entire heart to a girl?

She smiled and it rivaled the stars for its brightness.

You found happiness without me. And it hurt so fucking much and I wanted to hunt down the man who had claimed you and ask him if he knew how fucking lucky he was.

I wish love had been enough to heal you.”

“Thank you,” I said, turning in his arms and framing his face in my hands. “For what?” “For putting the stars back in the sky.”

The boy who hung the moon and put the stars in the sky.

The day I met Lila, the stars aligned. And if necessary, I’ll spend a lifetime putting them back in the sky for her.