Perfectly Thin

by Margaret McHeyzer

I hate how fat I am. I’m so fat I’m disgusting. No one will ever love me being this fat. No one will ever care for me if I’m fat. I have to be skinny.

I need to be a zero, then I’ll be perfectly thin and no one can ever say anything bad about my weight again.

something so depressing as myself in the mirror. I wish I could get a knife, and cut away all the disgusting parts of myself. But then, I wonder, what would be left?

There’s nothing beautiful about me. Not a single thing.

And the only way I can do that, is by making myself skinny, and beautiful. And skinny will make me so damn beautiful.

Beauty is pain. And I’m not going to be beautiful and skinny if I quit.

don’t care, I have to hurt myself, and then maybe my stupid brain will learn its lesson, and never dream about food again.

A fat freak who really shouldn’t be eating, but still, a freak none the less.

Maybe he thought no one would believe me because I’m not worth the hassle. Maybe, I’m not really even a something. Maybe I’m nothing.

I feel like I’m holding them back. They’re better off without me. Everyone’s better off without me.

I need to get skinny. I need to be perfect. I just have to lose a little more. Another five pounds, and I’ll look like everyone else. Like all the other girls. I

“What we’re trying to say is, there’s only one of you in the world, Jane. One. There’s no one else who’s like you. We love and adore everything about you. And we want you, to love and adore everything about yourself too.”

I hate so many things about myself, that I don’t even know where to start. I hate my smile; it’s crooked on one side. I hate my nose, because it has a bend in the middle. I hate how I stand in front of the mirror and all I see is how fat I am. I hate how I hate myself.

“With every fail you’re a step closer to success. Failing is part of life, as long as we keep on getting up after we fall. Making mistakes is how we learn.”

“You have the ugliest heart and I hope, for your sake you fix it, before it’s too late. One day, you’ll be the one who’s responsible for a girl’s death, and you’ll have to live with that. Because that’s what you did to me. You nearly put me in the grave.”

“You nearly killed me. Your words nearly killed me.”