The other reason I came here is because, lately, I have been thinking about my own death. I used to wish myself dead all the time. I’ve even tried to bring it about. But I am not thinking about my death like that any longer. Now I worry that my death will come to pass and with my final breath, I will realize that I’ve allowed my one and only opportunity to live to go to waste. So I have come to France to try to ensure that the feeling of wanting to live fully and unapologetically, like Brother Baldwin did, endures.
