Because now I am in control. Because people I have loved in the past have been hurt by this nation, and the people I love in the present have been hurt by it again, and because now I can do something to stop it. Because you choose sides in war and I chose the one that makes me feel human, and this I will not apologize for. I am violent. I am awful. But every vicious thing about me is mine in its entirety. I will not die as theirs.
