The Testaments (The Handmaid's Tale, #2)

by Margaret Atwood

But as I discovered what had been changed by Gilead, what had been added, and what had been omitted, I feared I might lose my faith. If you’ve never had a faith, you will not understand what that means. You feel as if your best friend is dying; that everything that defined you is being burned away; that you’ll be left all alone. You feel exiled, as if you are lost in a dark wood.

Still, I wanted to believe; indeed I longed to; and, in the end, how much of belief comes from longing?