Sharp Objects

by Gillian Flynn

When you die, you become perfect.

Is this what mothers did, wonder if you might need safety pins?

When we got home, she’d trail off to her room like an unfinished sentence, and I would sit outside with my face pressed against her door and replay the day in my head, searching for clues to what I’d done to displease her.

I like checking days off a calendar—151 days crossed and nothing truly horrible has happened. 152 and the world isn’t ruined. 153 and I haven’t destroyed anyone. 154 and no one really hates me.

People got such a charge from seeing their names in print. Proof of existence. I could picture a squabble of ghosts ripping through piles of newspapers. Pointing at a name on the page. See, there I am. I told you I lived. I told you I was.

Sometimes I think illness sits inside every woman, waiting for the right moment to bloom.

A child weaned on poison considers harm a comfort.