Our Way

by T.L. Swan

“Because I gave up the best part of my life to be loyal to him. I thought we had a future, but in the end, it was all for nothing. I was done.” “You ended it?” “Yes.” “Nathan.” Elliot’s eyes hold mine. “Are you still in love with Robert?” “No.” I shrug. “I was for a long time but not anymore. We’re friends. He’s openly gay and in a happy relationship.” “Tell me about your relationships since then.” I squirm in my seat, uncomfortable with where this is going. “I haven’t had one.” Elliot’s eyes narrow. “Not one?” “I’ve had sex, obviously, but I haven’t met anybody I would want long term.” “So, you have one night stands?” “What does this have to do with the reason I’m here?” I snap in exasperation. “I don’t see why this is relevant. Next question.” “No.” Elliot’s eyes hold mine. “I’ll repeat: do you have one night stands?” I glare at him. “I have regular casual partners.” “How long do you see the same person?” I shrug. “A few months.” “Until?” “Until they fall in love with me.” “Does love scare you?” “Nope,” I push out. “I’m just not interested, that’s all.”