I’m trying to monitor if she’s still having a good time with me, if I’m talking too much, or not enough. The alarm bells are working overtime and apparently it shows, because then it’s actually Kei who asks me if everything is alright. “Yeah, yeah, fine!” I respond without thinking. “If you’re not okay just wait outside. I’ll quickly get what I need and I’ll meet you there right after!” I tell her that’s not necessary while feeling quite annoyed with myself. Although I told her about my autism, the fact that she can tell feels like failing.
