We tested my emotions—the tightness between your emotional health and physical health is immense—and the main emotion that came up was a feeling of being abandoned. That word appears almost every time she tests me. But it doesn’t make me cry. It doesn’t bring up bad memories. I wasn’t abandoned as a child, and I don’t feel abandoned by a romantic partner. The actual definition of abandon is “lack of protection, support, or help from.”2 And as we read over the test results this time, I looked at Robin with clear and sober eyes and said, “Yes, that is true of me. I spend every day thinking about
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