Violet Bent Backwards Over the Grass

by Lana Del Rey

I’m yours if you’ll have me quietly or loudly sincerely your daughter regardless you’re mine.

i measure time by the days i’ve spent away from you that thought occurred to me as i watched the sky go dark from blue

No one ever touched me without wanting to kill me except for a healer on 6th Street and Ridgeley Tessa DiPietro recommended casually by a medium i no longer know She said my number one problem was my field was untrusting when asked what to do she paused and said nothing which sent me right into uncontrollable sobbing because there’s never anything you can do about the important things

Oh- and Jim died at 27 so find another frame of reference when you’re referencing heaven And did you ever read the lyrics to ‘People Are Strange’? He made no sense.

I saw you in the mirror you were wearing your hair differently carrying the air differently You say you want your hair long parted in the middle Long in solidarity - worn for all his women

Standing stoic blue and denim eyes not blue but clear like heaven you don’t want to be forgotten You just want to disappear

Don’t tell anyone but part of my reasoning for taking the flight class was this idea that if i could become my own navigator- a captain of the sky that perhaps i could stop looking for direction- from you.

Not tactfully and not gently the instructor shook his head and without looking at me said, “you don’t trust yourself.” I was horrified. Feeling as though I had somehow been found out. Like he knew me- how weak i was Of course he was only talking about my ability as a pilot in the sky. But i knew it was meant for me to hear those words.

And i didnt trust you, I could have said something but i was quiet because pilots aren’t like poets they don’t make metaphors between life and the sky.

I’m gentle I’m funny when I’m drunk though I haven’t been drunk for 14 years

You’re only as happy as your least happy child

So I made a bath that night of honey dipped my toes in rose and money stayed all night in that bathwater even some I swallowed. Now there’s so much sugar on me I can’t keep the bees off of me even most of my thoughts are charming some are blue and borrowed Sugar sugar lips and teeth fingertips touch emojis hard forever hearts on fleek bb please come over

You asked me to marry you You said your mother was dying and you couldn’t fathom your life without a woman in it.

But there’s always been just a little tiny piece of me inside the size of a small slice of angel cake that knew somewhere somehow That I deserved better than someone like you.

But lately I’ve been thinking that I wish someone had told me when I was younger more about the inhabitants that thrive off of paradise. That should they take too much there will be nothing left to give. Not everyone’s nature is good or golden

I stepped on a bird cried in my new boyfriend’s arms to live is to kill

For years I begged you to just take me in your arms you wouldn’t. Couldn’t.