Still, I know what they mean. I used to feel the same way in the days of my darkness. I wanted to repent, but I thought that I could not do it, and yet all the time I was actually repenting. Odd as it may sound, I felt that I could not feel. I used to get into a corner and weep, because I could not weep. I fell into bitter sorrow, because I could not sorrow for sin. What a mess we make when, in our unbelieving state of mind, we begin to judge our own condition! My heart was failing me for fear, because I thought that my heart was as hard as solid rock. My heart was broken to think that it
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