fast

by Millie Belizaire

And I needed Caprice.

“It’s you and me. Till we’re old as fuck.”

If I cry; Shaun cries with me. No matter how big and tough he gets, he just can’t help it, which was probably why I got into the habit of refusing to cry around him.

Please, please help me! I will kill myself before I have to go back to that house, Shaun. I mean it. If you love me, help me.”

“If you’re asking me to ignore the fact that someone is hurting you, then you’re asking me to ignore the fact that I love you,” he said quietly. “I won’t do either.”

“I will always choose you.”

I’m your best friend, not your yes-bitch.

All I had to hear her say was my name and I knew. I thought I let her go five years ago, but I guess that wasn’t true.

I still wanted to protect her. I still wanted to provide for her. And I still desperately wanted to hold her.

“You cry, I cry. It’s been like that since we were kids,”

“You hurt, I hurt. That’s how it’s always been. That’s how it’s always gonna be. So, you see… There’s really no reward in making you feel like shit about this.”

The time apart put a lot of things into perspective. The time apart allowed us to grow.