Make Me Hate You

by Kandi Steiner

“This

I learned over the years that that was how Morgan worked. She didn’t make decisions based off logic or research or science. She believed, wholeheartedly and unfailingly, in feelings. She trusted her gut when it said not to do something, and trusted it even more when it said to do something.

Maybe, I run from it instead of facing it head on because I’m so scared of what I’ll find.”

“Maybe we’re all monsters,” I whispered. “Just selfish, righteous things living in a nightmare, blaming our past for why we eat everyone around us alive, and feeling like we deserve something better, something holier — just because we’ve survived this long.”

It had always been him. It had always been us. And that kiss — that passionate, painful, bruising kiss told me that he knew it, too.

And making a decision based on possible negative outcomes only puts fear in the driver’s seat of your life, my girl.”

I loved him enough to let him go, and that was what felt right to me. But I also loved him enough to be selfish, to keep him for my own — consequences be damned.