Everything, Everything

by Nicola Yoon

“They must suspect,” I say. “The rockstar part at least. Your hair is four different shades of red.” “They think it’s a phase.” “Maybe you could write them a song.” His laugh booms. “I like you,” he says. “I like you, too,” I say back. “You could call the song ‘This Apple Has Fallen Very, Very, Very Far from the Tree.’ ” “I’m not even sure I’m an apple,” Zach says, laughing.

Lolll

“Are you going to tell him?” I ask. “No. I’ve been lying about myself for so long. I know what it’s like.” Relief washes over me. “Thank you,” I say.

Girl didn't even acknowledge how depressing that sounds.

He grows serious again. “Maybe growing up means disappointing the people we love.”

Wow

I eat nothing but Jell-O.

Lucky

Love is a terrible thing and its loss is even worse. Love is a terrible thing and I want nothing to do with it.

Ughhh

He sends me e-mails that I trash without reading.

Screw you Maddy

Her pain is endless. It falls off the ends of the world. Her pain is a dead sea. Her pain is for me, but I cannot bear it anymore.

Wow.

ONCE UPON A time there was a girl whose entire life was a lie.

Ahem

I want to hurt her again and again.

I hate Maddy even more

“I still love you, Madeline. And you still love me. You have your whole life ahead of you. Don’t waste it. Forgive me.”

IM LITERALLY SOBBING

THE END IS THE BEGINNING IS THE END

REAL

Love. Love makes people crazy. Loss of love makes people crazy.

Yea...

“When will you come back home?” she asked. And I told her the truth. “I don’t know if this is home anymore.” She cried then, but still she let me go, and that has to count for something.

IM CRYING TOO ACKKKHHH

THE LITTLE PRINCE BY ANTOINE DE SAINT-EXUPÉRY Spoiler alert: Love is worth everything. Everything.

AHHHHHHHH

Olly pulls his hands out of his pockets, plucks the book from the shelf and reads. He grins and bounces lightly on the balls of his feet. I come out of hiding. I walk down the aisle toward him. The smile he gives me is worth living for. “Found your book,” he says.

AHHHHHHHHHHHH IM CRYING SO HARD RNNNN

AHHHHHHH

THE END

NAURRRR OML IM LITERALLY HYPERVENTILATING AHHHHHHHHHHH

Books like The Little Prince by Antoine de Saint-Exupéry, The Bluest Eye by Toni Morrison, Nine Stories by J. D. Salinger, and too many more to list have held enormous meaning for me.

Angst is good for you. It’s the asking of questions that’s important, not the answers.

Filming it was so much fun! I hope we don’t get edited out.

HAHAHAHAHAAA

Is there a message or feeling that you’d like readers to take away from the book? Love is worth everything.

• “If I Had a Gun” by Noel Gallagher’s High Flying Birds • “Pieces” by Andrew Belle • “4 Minute Warning” by Radiohead • “Videotape” by Radiohead • “I Need My Girl” by The National • “Graceless” by The National • “Hannah Hunt” by Vampire Weekend • “Rehab” by Amy Winehouse • “This Place Is a Prison” by The Postal Service • “Mezzanine” by Massive Attack • “Angel” by Massive Attack • “Extraordinary Machine” by Fiona Apple

Playlist for the book