wondering, Is this even survivable? I pulled my journal back out. I didn’t rip out the forgiveness quote I’d written. Instead, I wrote a narrative to negate it. It’s all so cruel. And seemingly impossible to get over. I’ve read the Bible verses. I know God’s instruction by heart—forgive and you will be forgiven. But I can’t process how to apply this right now. I’ve tried. I said the words of forgiveness I was supposed to say. So, why does this kind of anger still circle around in my heart, take over my best intentions, and fly out of my mouth? Forgiveness didn’t seem to work for me. So please
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