When I was saying God wasn’t answering my prayers, what I was really saying was God wasn’t doing what I wanted Him to do. I know God is in control. But the more I can’t understand what I see, the more I want to take back control for myself. We try to control what we don’t trust. I think I’ve just wrongly assigned to God hurt caused by people. When what I’m praying for is the only evidence I’m using to determine how involved God is or how faithful God is, it’s no wonder I get so disillusioned. It’s no wonder I cry and ask why and feel so very betrayed at times.
