We did of course have the great outdoors, but although I enjoyed fishing, four-wheeling, and 4-H-ing, I never felt like it was enough; being good at those kinds of things felt like I was rising to expectations, not developing my own. Now I know that suppressing a major part of your identity will make it feel like nothing is enough, but at the time I just felt uncomfortable in my own body, and my body was in Traverse.
