If we wish to enter more deeply into this mystery of redemptive suffering, which also means somehow entering more deeply into the heart of God, we have to ask the Lord to allow us to feel, not just to know. To feel what it means to be empty, abandoned, uncared for. Not only for five minutes and not only about trivia like missing the bus, but rather, an entire life’s stance, a standing-under, so that we can “understand.” This change of position is what we mean by “conversion.” Metanoia means turning around. It’s quite different from mere education.
